Nothing awakens the senses like gentle sparkling rains, the exciting scent of morning in the country, and a little front porch sitting with the silvery peals of children’s laughter dancing through the air. A more perfect time for reflection could not be found.
Never having been one to quote a great deal of scripture (Having grown up in the buckle of the Bible Belt — I had my fill of that early on.), I love reading and find myself reaching for the Bible more and more now that I am a parent. Instinctively, I search for soothing verses or those which offer inspirations for daily life. Those are never very hard to find, thank goodness, because the lack of sleep which comes from co-habitating with an 8 month old sent my attention span packing.
I keep returning to these verses:
“And in fact, you do love all the brothers throughout Macedonia. Yet we urge you, brothers, to do so more and more. Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.” Thessalonians 4:10-12
Admittedly, the adoption process has not been an easy one. Yes, we have children but they are not yet ours. We never intended to be foster parents — and yet here we are — juggling visits with biological parents, marking court dates on our calenders, and struggling with our emotions. It’s easy to get discouraged and wonder what the big picture is in all of this.
During one of the many moments where my heart is torn between intense joy of parenting and then the painful (but logical) realization that the adoption may not happen for us — my thoughts returned to those lines from Thessalonians, “We urge you to do so more and more.” More love to more people. More outreach. More compassion. More volunteering. More.
And yet, we are to balance all of the love with hard work and focus our energies into leading a simple, peaceful, and self-sufficient life.
This comforts me. Regardless of what the future holds with these beautiful children (or even without them), I know that we are giving more and we are working steadily toward the day that we can say, “We lived an honest life. We are free of financial debts. We have worked for everything that we have. And we have loved more.”